Lux Thinking Aloud Better 4:01 PM "If you hit rock bottom, the only way to go is up."I wouldn't say this crisis got me hitting rock bottom. But man, the past days have been tough, tough, tough! Not only for me. I know the whole world can relate. Glad to see things are finally starting to look better.BetterThough it's too early to say as we're only at the beginning of the 2nd quarter of the year, I'm holding on to my faith.I know it's hard to believe that we're not even halfway through the year. 2020, 'yer a mess!But, I believe things are getting better. We Heart ItThe sweltering heat of summer is finally coming to an end. Rainy season has begun! Community quarantine has been lifted in most areas.More establishments are starting to operate again.A lot of businesses especially in the vegan niche are seeing a huge increase in their revenue. 💚A case has been filed against officers who violated the quarantine protocols (with how the government is handling things though, I'm not hoping on this so much...but it's a good start!)On a personal note:My favorite plant-based restaurant is opening soon. I've found another online class for writing.My face is clearing up. 💆♀️I'm able to sleep normally again.I'm still seeing opportunities and getting collaboration requests on my website. THANK YOU all for the support!I think more people are getting the hang of staying home too. I see people opening up to the idea of working remotely.As I've said on my 9th day of C oro na Chronicles:This crisis will not be the end of me. I refuse to be defeated by this invisible enemy.I'm confident of this, that He who began a good work in me will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. (Philippians 1:6)Yes, I made that verse personal. As it should be. The Bible is God's love letter to His people.Here's a song full of hope which I've heard years ago when I was starting on my spiritual journey.I Have a HopeTommy WalkerI have a hope, I have a futureI have a destiny that is yet awaiting meMy life's not over, a new beginning's just begunI have a hope, I have this hopeGod has a plan, it's not to harm meBut it's to prosper me and to hear me when I callHe intercedes for me, working all things for my goodThough trials may come I have this hopeI will yet praise Him, my great RedeemerI will yet stand up and give Him glory with my lifeHe takes my darkness and He turns it into lightI will yet praise Him, my Lord my GodMy God is for me, He's not against meSo tell me whom then, tell me whom then shall I fearHe has prepared for meGreat works He'll help me to completeI have a hope, I have this hopeGoodness and mercy, they're gonna follow meAnd I'll forever dwell in the house of my great KingNo eye has ever seen all He's preparing there for meThough trials may come, I have this hopeThere's still hope for me today'Cause the God heaven loves meI think another reason why I feel better today is that it's Friday. The thought of another two days of doing what I want to do or not doing anything is at hand. Don't you sometimes know it's going to rain just because you have a gut feeling that it will? I have that gift.I'd tell my husband to bring an umbrella but he wouldn't because he doesn't think it would rain. And he'll end up regretting it.GfycatMaybe it's because I've lived here much longer than him that my body knows what a slight change in temperature means.What I'm trying to say is that...I can feel it in my gut that things are finally getting better. For the first time since 2020 started, I have a good feeling about what's going to happen next.I could be wrong. I'm more of a realist now, you know. But I'm feeling a shift. A good one.How about you? Are you feeling better?
Lux Thinking Aloud Confusing 10:27 AM That ex who tells you one thing and does another. 🙄 Do you remember how that made you feel? Confusing isn't it? It's like that Katy Perry song.You're hot then you're coldYou're yes then you're noYou're in then you're outYou're up then you're downYou're wrong when it's rightIt's black and it's whiteConfusingWe're in this confusing time right now. They tell you to follow the rules and they strictly (and violently) implement it to ordinary citizens. But the same law doesn't apply to them. They say enhanced community q uarantine is over but the day isn't over yet and they change their statement. Again. Ayayay.SpiceYourSillyLifeBut...I don't want this post to be political.Writing is my escape. It's my antidote for all toxicities around me.So, that's the end of my rant for today. 😎Let me instead share some things I do when negativity like today happens. Please indulge me as I recommend my previous posts.How to Feel Good When You're Having a Bad DayChange the Way You Think and Set Yourself Free25 Powerful Declarations that Will Shape Your Day and Ultimately Change Your LifeDetox from Negative ThoughtsDetox From Toxic Feelings5 Simple Ways to De-Stress At Your DeskThings Work Out Even When You Think They Don'tI wish I'm always this optimistic and strong. Human as I am, I sometimes give in to my weakness. Like those times I shared in my other diary entries.Diary Day 3: King of the JungleDiary Day 5: DisconnectDiary Day 8: Trade OffDiary Day 34: SleeplessDay 41: InsomniaI am extremely grateful for writing. It's a venue for me to air my overwhelming thoughts. When I put my musings to writing, I feel better. I change my perspective. I get clarity.It's the same as when I'm organizing things. Once I put everything in containers and arrange them, my mind automatically calms down.Chaos turns to peace. It gives me hope.I totally get Marie Kondo.NetflixWell, lockdown is almost over. At least that's what they tell us. I won't be getting my hopes up. I don't want to be disappointed.I'd rather be realistic. Knowing how fickle-minded and apathetic this government is, I know it can change anytime.I'm adaptable.Am I going to reach day 50 of recording my life in the time of c oronavirus? Gosh, I hope not. (It's really been longer than 50 days. I started only when our city began the enhanced community q uarantine. Maybe that's when my mind couldn't take it anymore. So, I sought for refuge in blogging again.)I'm glad we're nearing the end. Even when at the moment, it's still a little confusing. Just adding a little spice to this life, I guess?Your turnWhat do you do during confusing times?
Lux Thinking Aloud Laugh 11:33 PM When's the last time you laughed so hard your facial muscles hurt? It's hard to laugh when you're bombarded by bad news day after day after day. Sometimes the day is not yet over and there it is on your screen again---another grim update. But we have to learn to laugh and find a reason to do so. As cliché as it may be, laughter is the best medicine.LaughAfter a week of not watching, I had my dose of the TV show Friends again. Thank God for humor. Thank God for comedy shows. What a dreadful life it would be without laughter, no?I like that I can laugh about the silliest things. That I'm able to find humor even during this time. God gave us joy. He brings us reasons to laugh and be happy.Don't you just love laughing?When I need a good laugh, I look at videos and funny photos of our dogs. They can surely make me smile every time.I watch funny guilty dog compilations online.I look at memes.I recount funny experiences or hilarious conversations.My husband does a good job of making me laugh with his silly remarks.Which is another answered prayer, by the way. I asked God to give me a partner who can make me laugh. I remember my exes couldn't. 😆We cannot really love anybody with whom we never laugh. -Agnes RepplierMy brother introduced to me Key & Peele of Comedy Central. I think the actors there are superb. For them to be able to shoot the scene without losing it is beyond professional.Sharing some Bible verses about laughing:He will yet fill your mouth with laughter, and your lips with shouting. - Job 8:21And Sarah said, “God has made laughter for me; everyone who hears will laugh over me." -Genesis 21:6Blessed are you who weep now, for you shall laugh. -Luke 6:21Strength and dignity are her clothing, and she laughs at the time to come. -Proverbs 31:25And some quotes too:Humor is a prelude to faith and laughter is the beginning of prayer. — Reinhold NiebuhrA good laugh is sunshine in the house. — William ThackerayRemember this: very little is needed to make a happy life. — Marcus AureliusLaugh my friend, for laughter ignites a fire within the pit of your belly and awakens your being. —Stella & BlakeThe human race has one really effective weapon, and that is laughter. — Mark TwainFrom there to here, from here to there, funny things are everywhere. — Dr. SeussA well-balanced person is one who finds both sides of an issue laughable. — Herbert ProcknowWhen you laugh, aside from the endorphin rush, there’s also a spiritual opening. You’re not so tight inside yourself. That opening I’ve found to be a real gift, in people being able to absorb spirituality. —Rabbi Sydney MintzLaughter is God’s hand on the shoulder of a troubled world. — Bettenell HuntznickerYou don’t stop laughing because you grow old. You grow old because you stop laughing. — Michael PritchardStay young. Stay sane. Keep laughing. Yes, even especially during this crisis.Your turnWhat's your favorite comedy show?What makes you laugh?
Lux Thinking Aloud Rested 9:07 PM Have you seen the movie Jumper? It's about people who have the ability to jump from one place to another. Like apparating in Harry Potter. When I lack sleep, that's how I feel. I sometimes come to my senses and wonder how I got to Location B when my last memory was I was in Location A. Thankful that it's not one of those days today. My mind finally succumbed to sleep and today I feel rested. Ahhh, power naps. Short but effectual. RestedAnother realization in this c oronavirus lockdown life: sleep is vacation in itself.I still look forward to having a real vacation once the dust settles. But really, sleep is a good escape from this daily hullabaloo.I'm amazed by how our mind works. Especially how we dream.For in dreams we enter a world that is entirely our own. Let them swim in the deepest ocean, or glide over the highest cloud.-Albus Dumbledore (J.K. Rowling)My dreams are weird. Even I myself wake up and wonder why it's like so sometimes.I've dreamed about:talking with people I know already passed awaybeing dead myself and feeling free because I could flyflying and not being dead 😂surfing in the middle of the ocean (that was more of a nightmare)warcelebritieshigh schoolIt depends on what I last saw or read before going to bed. But most of the time, they're random.TenorI've not been thinking about a dead person for example and then I would see him/her in my dreams. Not being scary but just there talking casually.Sometimes in my dreams I know they're dead, sometimes I'd only remember when I wake up.Some sleep leaves me more tired than rested. I'm a workaholic and my mind has a hard time shutting down especially after a long day.Sleep is one of the things I took for granted when I was a kid. I used to dread it when my parents tell me to take an afternoon nap. All I wanted to do was play. Or watch TV.When I went to college and started working, that's when I realized the value of sleep.Kids, if you're reading this, sleep!Get all the rest you need. Don't believe the people who say you can sleep when you're dead.Without sleep, you'll be like a zombie. Not dead but also not truly alive. What a waste of life.GiphySleep is important to stay sane, healthy and to live a good life. You can't enjoy life when you lack rest. As I've mentioned before, based on my personal experience of forgoing sleep, I felt like a jumper.In this time of crisis, rest is necessary and beneficial both for our mental and physical health.Even during this p andemic, we can rest easy because:He will not let your foot be moved; He who keeps you will not slumber. Behold, He who keeps Israel will neither slumber nor sleep.-Psalm 121:3-4Gosh, I hope I can remember those words every time worries start to creep in.Your turnWhat's your weirdest dream?
Faith Insomnia 8:52 PM Another night spent battling for sleep. I can't remember the last time I've had insomnia. Even during the stressful wedding planning stage, I was still able to sleep. Lack of sleep is bad for the body. Our health gets affected negatively. Immune system lowers. Every system seems to malfunction. Like an overworked machine, it crashes.InsomniaWhat to do when you can't sleep? Does counting sheep still work? Or counting 1 to 100? That one used to work for me. When I was about ten.Being an adult (ugh), I'm going to need more than that. I'm tired but my mind won't shut down.GiphyI don't like being idle because "An idle mind is the devil's workshop."It's when I'm sleepless that the devil whispers lies in my ears. Reminding me of my awful experiences. Plants worries in my head. Sometimes I stay and wait for sleep to come. When it's impossible to happen, I get up and start working again. Or blogging.I'm only human. And an over-thinker and worrier too. When crisis like this happens, I'm at my worst.I've said this before and I'll say it again:I won't be here without God's grace. My helpline, my refuge, my strength. Here I am running back to the word for comfort to help me deal with my insomnia.Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. -Philippians 4:6I am leaving you with a gift—peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid. -John 14:27When doubts filled my mind, your comfort gave me renewed hope and cheer. -Psalm 94:19This is my command—be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the LORD your God is with you wherever you go. -Joshua 1:9Do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. Life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest? - Luke 12:22-26Overhearing what they said, Jesus told him, "Don't be afraid; just believe." - Mark 5:36Trust in the LORD with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding. -Proverbs 3:5Here's a beautiful Psalm 23 song to calm the anxious mind.The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing. He makes me lie down in green pastures, He leads me beside quiet waters, He refreshes my soul.He guides me along the right paths for his name’s sake.Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.Surely your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.-Psalm 23Your turnWhat bible verse do you read to calm your mind?How are you holding up during this time?
Faith How to Prosper 1:35 PM My body clock has gone haywire since this lockdown life started. This Sunday, I woke up who knows when. Thank God for recordings. I got to watch today's Feast Bellevue service and was blessed by God's word. Core message: prosper.ProsperBuild houses and settle down. Plant gardens and eat their produce. Take wives and have sons and daughters.Take wives for your sons and give your daughters in marriage, so that they too may have sons and daughters. Multiply there; do not decrease. Seek the prosperity of the city to which I have sent you as exiles. Pray to the LORD on its behalf, for if it prospers, you too will prosper. -Jeremiah 29:5-7This is a part of the letter of the prophet Jeremiah to the surviving elders exiled to Babylon. They were in a crisis.I like how Bro Arun broke this down.How to Prosper During a Crisis1. Build houses and settle down.I don't think we'll ever go back to the normal we used to know. That normal didn't work. It's what brought us here.This crisis unfortunately is taking longer than expected. To build houses and settle down means we stay. We adjust and adapt to the new normal.If we keep whining and forcing everything to be back to what it used to be, there will be consequences.We have to change our perspective. This is where we are now. What to do with what we have and where we are? That should be our focus.Or else, we'll go insane.Sadly, this c oronavirus is causing a spike in suicide rates. Please know you're not alone.I started this blog to not feel alone myself and to reach out to those who need someone to walk to. Someone to share their life journey with.Message me if you need someone to listen to you.Gfycat2. Plant gardens and eat their produce.Literally, we need to grow our food. I wish I have a garden where I can harvest potatoes, carrots, cucumbers, lemons, onions, garlic, tomatoes, herbs. Someday I will.Figuratively, we need to grow during this crisis.I admit I paused for a while. When the lockdown started, it took me some time to wrap my head around what's going on. I got stuck.I had so many questions.I was in denial and disbelief. I was in shock with the whole nation.But when I got a grip of myself, I started hustling again.Remember that famous line of Robert H. Schuller? Tough times never last. Tough people do.I can't watch myself staying stuck after falling. One day I decided enough is enough. I stood up again, dusted myself off and moved forward.Oh, it was hard. I literally dragged myself out of bed every morning.Anxiety still rears its ugly head once in a while. But I don't succumb to it anymore.I choose to plant seeds. Now, I'm harvesting little by little. Reddit3. Take wives and have sons and daughters.I know children are blessings. They're gifts from God. My sister gave birth just before the lockdown happened and our family's excited and glad to welcome her cute bundle of joy.I also know this crisis is not a good time to have a baby. There's a time for everything.So, when I read this passage, I got worried and confused.Have children during the crisis when there's shortage of essentials and there's a global economic crash?But as Bro Arun explained it, this crisis should be a time to strengthen our relationship with each other especially with our family. Or those we're stuck with during the q uarantine.This time is about discipleship. We should make disciples. We should propagate the Good News.Those disciples will make disciples who will make disciples in return.Phew!Giphy4. Multiply. Do not decrease. Prosper. Most of all pray. Pray for the city. For when it prospers, you prosper.I love that verse. 👆Most of us complain about what's happening and how the people in authority respond to it. I've been guilty of that. Especially when I see injustice.When I hear people cry dura lex sed lex when it's for the poor or powerless but seeks to extend compassion for those who are in position, that's too preposterous to stay quiet.Despite that, I keep praying for my country and for the world. For I believe that when the leaders fail, we all fail. How they think, what they decide are out of my control. But...I know Who's in control of everything and we have an open line communication through prayers.GiphyI love that God's plans for His people, even in the midst of crisis, is not to harm but to prosper.His promise is a life of abundance and not a life of insufficiency. How marvelous He is!Your turnHow's your Sunday?How do you think can you prosper during this crisis?
Lux Thinking Aloud Goodbye 8:41 PM Today, my aunt was put to rest. We call her Mommy. At 2 PM, my family bid Mommy goodbye. GoodbyeMost of us weren't there because of this lockdown. Only ten people were allowed and they had to observe social distancing. Typical Mommy fashion. She's the type of person who doesn't want attention or big events. She rarely leave her house. I can count in one hand the times I saw her go out. And that's in the whole 30+ years of me knowing her.She does things her way. Even her doctor can't get her to follow prescription. A very stubborn woman who doesn't follow instructions. She died at her own terms.Goodbye is bittersweet.I wonder what she was thinking during her last moment.You see, she was brought to the hospital when she had a hard time breathing. But when my cousin went back to her room, she was gone. Because she removed the oxygen that was supporting her.She didn't want to fight anymore. I wonder how that feels. To lose the will to live. To not have anything to look forward to every day.Goodbye is bitter because we weren't able to pay our last respect. We weren't there to bring her to her final destination (here on earth).Sweet because no more pain and health issues for her. She'll finally be reunited with her sister whom she had a love-hate relationship with. I guess it's more love than hate after all. For why would she want to see her again so badly?Someday when this is all over, we sure will have our own bittersweet stories to tell.If our elders have their war stories for us when we were kids, we'll have our life in the time of c oronavirus chronicles.That's why I'm logging in my thoughts and feelings every day. Because I might forget and I don't want to.I want to remember everything. Every struggle, every highlight and even every mediocre moment in this lockdown.Including all the people that made this challenge easier. And especially those who showed their true colors. Oh, I will never forget who selflessly served and those who took this as an opportunity to abuse their power.One day this p andemic will be over. This dark time will end.The bright sun will shine upon us again.And we'll say goodbye to this unpleasant chapter of life forever.Now may the Lord of peace Himself give you His peace at all times and in every situation.-2 Thessalonians 3:16 Your turnWhat has been the highlight of your lockdown so far?Who are the people who shined the most for you during this time of crisis?
Lux Thinking Aloud Friday 5:10 PM Ahhh...Friday. Friday remains to be my favorite F-word. Because it's the last day of hustling. Yes, I can still keep hustling during the weekend. That's the advantage of working from home. But I choose not to. Unless I have a deadline and I need to extend. Friday gives me a sigh of relief.FridayI bet the world will be relieved once this p andemic is over. When we can finally step out of the house without the fear of C OVID-19...that will be the day.I see a lot of news about conspiracy theory. Doctors and scientists showing proof that this is just a plan with money and control as motivation of those who created this virus. We'll be heaving a sigh of relief if this will be not only proven but also stopped.No weapon formed against you shall prosper. -Isaiah 54:17When we can finally hug each other again without the fear of death, oh what a day that will be.GfycatBut until then, we must keep praying. I'm a believer of prayers because I've experienced its power first hand.We must not let this crisis hinder us from moving forward.I believe God is a God of abundance. Even in the midst of the desert, He provides manna and fresh water for His people.He will never let our cups run dry.He will never forsake us.I know I sound like a recording because I keep repeating this. But that's how I calm myself. Anxiety and fear goes away when I remember how powerful and great my God is.Friday. It reminds me to pause and enjoy what I worked hard for during this week.Someday, I'll be hustling for one day only and do what I like the rest of the week. It's possible and it's not wishful thinking because I know people who do this.I won't be lazing around for sure. I might still be glued on my laptop but I won't be stressing myself out with work.I'd probably be attending more online classes to improve my skills. I know, I'm boring.Or blogging a lot. I have pending posts especially those about my travels.adorablyobnoxiousOr be at a beach somewhere with my husband who misses our trips as much as I do.Or taking care of animals in a shelter.Despite all the problems and noise going around, I'm happy that I'm still able to look forward to something good.I'm always hopeful. I like that about myself. 😊Your turnWhat is your favorite day of the week and why?What are you looking forward to after this p andemic?
Lux Thinking Aloud Blank 10:55 PM This is my retaliation to you, blinking cursor on a blank page!BlankI can't think of anything to write because this is like a blank day. A day when it's neither blah nor boom! So I'm freely accepting this as a blank. Yeah, take that mocking blank page that's been staring back at me for 30 minutes. I'm not going to let you bully me into writing something long and inspiring.I just lost my aunt a few days ago and we can't even pay our last respects because of this p andemic.I'm still trying to wrap my head around the fact that the last time I saw her was during the funeral of her sister.Our government is still pointing fingers instead of taking accountability and not taking this crisis seriously.Where's the calamity fund?!Turns out they're not obliged to reveal. It's futile trying to convince the blind supporters that they owe it to the people to be transparent. We're not in a cult. We can't just follow without knowing where they're leading us.GiphyNot going to guilt trip myself into being productive today.I would usually pressure myselfI've worked hard the past days. I'm going to listen to my body when it tells me 'enough' and 'take a break'.Being productive is important but mental health check should also be a priority.Research shows that we need to take a break and decompress so we can be at our best at work—and at home. Maybe we should ask if the life we’re working so hard to create is fun to live?-Tina Hallis, Sharpen Your Positive Edge: Shifting Your Thoughts for More Positivity and SuccessCome to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.Matthew 11:28What do you fill your empty day with when you can't go out and find some entertainment outdoors?I listened to Harry Potter at home today.Basically Daniel Radcliffe who played Harry in the movie reading the first chapter of Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone book.(Hey, I can talk about Harry Potter all day. I'll never have a blank page again!)Brings back memories. College memories to be exact.This may sound dramatic but this is what I always say about this book: I helped Harry Potter out of his cupboard and he helped save my life.Yes, that's how amazing this book is. It's like a refuge for my lost college soul. Maybe it's the fact that Harry had to deal with the usual life challenges we also face but keeps his sassiness and kindness at the same time.It's the usual good versus evil but the plot will keep you on the edge of your seat. True story: I had to pull my lids up and hold it to keep me from falling asleep because I really needed to know what happens in the next chapter! If only I had the same dedication for my college books.TenorI've never had that experience with another book ever. If you know of one, send me your recommendation.Here's one more quote to ease you of your guilt if you feel bad about not doing something today:The mind should be allowed some relaxation, that it may return to its work all the better for the rest.-SenecaYour turnWhat book changed your life?What podcast are you currently listening to?
Lux Thinking Aloud Miss 5:35 PM Since the start of this qu arantine life, I've been missing a lot of things. I've realized there are simple activities that I took for granted. People I didn't spend enough time with because I thought I'll always see them anyway. Well, 2020 happened and cruelly took so many things away. Now I'm feeling an empty space in my heart.MissI miss my dogs. Their distinct smell, their high energy, their contagious joy, their unconditional and pure love and their silliness. Dogs bring me happiness that I can't find anywhere else.As introverted and anti-social as I am, this lockdown is surprisingly making me miss going out.My version of going out is church and eating out with my husband, running errands (though I don't miss those involving government offices), going to the spa or salon and watching a movie. Once in a while, I meet friends or family.I miss traveling. I don't travel as much now as when I was single. But I do miss seeing new places, relaxing, enjoying nature. I miss the feel of the beach sand in my toes, the smell of salt in the air, the cool breeze and the sound of the waves. Now all I could do is look at my travel photos on Instagram (In case you haven't yet, follow me @lifeandlove_blog). View this post on Instagram A post shared by Content + Copywriting (@lifeandlove_blog) on May 6, 2020 at 10:09am PD I miss shopping for my favorite brand on my affiliate store.I miss my two aunts whom we've lost this year. It's only May and our family already lost two members. They're both huge parts of my childhood. Speaking of which, I miss being a child when the only crisis I had to deal with was how to keep my broken toys so I don't get reprimanded. My childhood was not perfect. But it was memorable and I was full of hope and dreams.I guess that's what I miss the most about it. When I believed in everything and possibilities seemed limitless.I miss eating my favorite foods in my favorite restaurants.You know what else I miss?I miss being able to express an opinion without being shamed and ridiculed by those who don't share the same belief.I miss those days when we can freely share who we're supporting and not end up in heated debates.I miss logical and objective arguments. Now all you get are pointless rebuttals and personal attacks. 🙄Respect and freedom of speech seem to have lost their meaning and value.When I was young, we were taught to be polite to people especially to the elders. Oh, we will never hear the end of it if we went to someone's house and we forgot to say "Good morning".Now I see young people and they act as if it's not cool to be courteous anymore. Not all. But majority.What have we become as a society?It seems the more advance the technology, the more backwards we have become.I miss the simple life.Now, I'm not grumbling. I'm blessed and I know it.I'm grateful for:being alive and wellhaving a wonderful husbandhaving food on the table and a roof over my headmy family and friendsmy faith that's keeping me sanedoors of opportunities opening simple indulgence like watching FRIENDS and eating chocolatesI pray that this crisis will soon end and we can move our lives forward from this p andemic.If you've lost someone dear, I'm sending you my deepest sympathies and leaving you this verse:He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.-Revelation 21:4Your turnWhat do you miss most about your life before c oronavirus?What are you thankful for today?
Lux Thinking Aloud Loss 12:12 AM I looked at the photo of the body bag my sister sent and I was at a loss for words. How can someone I used to see alive, laughing and talking be in that body bag now? It's beyond me.My aunt died today. She's been sick and weak for more than a year now.Still, I grew up with her around and it's hard to imagine a world without her. Don't you feel that about someone? You know we all die eventually but when they're a constant presence in your life, you feel like they will always be there. Their loss brings shock and pain.LossIf 2020 is a person, it will be Dolores Umbridge. A heartless bitch who doesn't seem to run out of evil ideas and was born to spread injustice and hostility. ImgurMy other aunt (the sister of the one who just died) passed away last March. I'm still trying to wrap my head around not seeing her anymore whenever I go visit home and here I am mourning another death.Every day they see each other when they were alive. Maybe she took her sister's death too hard. Because when my cousin watching her stepped out of the hospital room, she removed the tubes that were helping her breathe.The last time I saw her was at the funeral of my other aunt.Since we are in the time of c oronavirus and in l ockdown, we will not be able to pay our last respect. No wake. No funeral. She will be cremated.May the Lord grant her soul eternal repose.He will wipe every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain. All these things are gone forever. -Revelation 21:4Lost of freedom of speechI don't want to make this political but today, a big network was ordered by the government to shut down. It's the same network that was closed during the Martial Law.It's scary what is going on right now. The virus is not the only thing we need to be cautious about.GiphyWhat's going to happen next? The future is uncertain and scary. I especially feel sorry for the 11,000 employees and the people who relies on them.People are getting retrenched left and right and yet the government had the audacity to add 11,000 more to the statistics. In the middle of the p andemic? Really?While illegal Chinese workers flock and seem untouchable?Sigh.At a time like this, here's the verse I'm holding on to:The LORD Himself goes before you and will be with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. -Deuteronomy 31:8Please pray for my aunt's soul.Please pray that the evil plans of some people will not succeed.Pray for where you are for when it prospers, you will prosper too.Your turnHow do you deal with loss?
Faith Sleepless 11:17 PM Sleepless I am literally sleepless today. I took pain medicine yesterday for my headache and the caffeine in it is too strong. Despite me taking only half the dose. So here I am, feeling hangover from a drinking session I never went to. Still standing (or sitting down). Still hustling. The bad thing about not getting sleep is that our bodies are not functioning as it should. Previously, I wrote about having a life balance. Anything in excess is not good. And here I am totally sleepless. I can feel the effects of overworking my brains: dizziness nausea shortness of breath stomach upset uneven skin tone irritability Tenor My husband could attest to the last one. 🤣 If I will have to be honest, it's not just the caffeine that kept me awake. (I've already learned my lesson and only takes half the dose since that time I had palpitations.) But worry has once again conquered me. And no matter what tips you follow for getting a good night sleep, if your mind is filled with fear and anxiety, it's useless. I worry about what will come about after this p andemic. I worry about how the government leaders with selfish intentions would respond to this crisis. I worry about my career. I worry about a lot of things. Worry steals from today. As for me, it stole my rest. It stole my peace. It stole what would have been a more productive day for me. It stole more time I could have spent with my husband. Pinterest Instead of doing these things, I spent it trying to think straight. Trying to not lose my temper to my husband who's also in desperate need of sleep. Two cranky people who are also hungry trying to get by the day is not a good combination. I'm glad my husband is quick to apologize and even quicker to forgive. I spent today trying to function despite feeling lethargic and out of it. Antidote for sleepless night Searching on the web about sleeping, here's a verse I've found: In peace I will lie down and sleep for you alone, O LORD, will keep me safe. -Psalm 4:8 I feel bad for falling into this weakness again. When I worry and fear, I know I am insulting God. There are many times God commanded us to not worry in the Bible. But in my weakness, I allowed the enemy to make my mind a playground for his lies again. Lord, grant me the grace to believe and obey you. Calm my worries. Allow me to rest at your feet. May I sleep in Your presence tonight.Amen. Your turn What makes you sleepless?What are your tips for a good night rest?
Lux Thinking Aloud Blessings 9:47 AM Finding blessings when you're carrying a heavy burden is like searching for a grain of white rice in the white sand. It's HARD. Looking for things to be thankful for during this crisis could be difficult too. When you got furloughed and you don't have enough saved away, you don't have time to sit still and find blessings. You can only panic and worry about where you'll get your next meal. Blessings Every day, we are surrounded by blessings. From the moment we wake up---hey, that is a blessing in itself. Not everyone got that chance. As of this writing, there are 3.5 million C OVID-19 cases around the world and 248,245 deaths. Looking for blessings may be hard because we're in this dark time. So we need a flashlight for that. We need our eyes of faith. Yesterday I watched The Feast online. One of the assignments is to list down 100 blessings to thank for. From the smallest blessing to the major ones. The more specific the better. Kind of hard so I'll give it a try. But I'll start with 50 first. God's generous provision. God's steadfast love. God's mercy that's new every morning. Jesus laying down His life so we can live an abundant life. God's beautiful promises. God's faithfulness. Being protected from harm. A strong immune system. Being able to wake up today. Being able to breathe normally. My husband who tirelessly serves me and loves me unconditionally It finally rained! I get to sleep a lot longer than expected because of the cooler weather. My breakouts are healing. The internet. My laptop. My phone. Movies we're able to stream online. New videos from vlogs I follow. My nephew's cute, round, chubby face that always makes me smile. My nephew's recovery. Getting inspired to clean my husband's closet. That good, satisfying feeling looking at my husband's now organized closet. You have no idea! Inspirational podcasts I got to listen to while organizing. The Feast. Food on the table. Roof over my head. Clothes on my back. Therapeutic writing. Dogs. Pollution is clearing out. Nature is finally able to breathe. My tribe's support. Knowing that my family and friends are well and safe. Frontliners especially the health workers risking their lives to help stop the virus. Some people in the government doing their jobs with integrity and selflessness. People finally realizing they voted for the wrong people. Stay woke! 😎 A lot of animals have been spared as festivals have been cancelled. The sales increase in the vegan industry. People realizing the damage we've done to the planet and changing their ways. This time to relax and not think about stressful stuff. Being able to laugh. A beautiful and prosperous future. Chocolate bars. Tea. Food delivery services. A good shoulder rub from my husband. A relaxing shower. Clean sheets. Relaxing music. Speaking of which, I discovered something that helps calm me down. I love Ghibli films and it's great to hear piano and slow versions of their music. Your turn List the things you're thankful for and see how many you can come up with.
