I've realized there are simple activities that I took for granted.
People I didn't spend enough time with because I thought I'll always see them anyway.
Well, 2020 happened and cruelly took so many things away. Now I'm feeling an empty space in my heart.
Miss
I miss my dogs. Their distinct smell, their high energy, their contagious joy, their unconditional and pure love and their silliness.
Dogs bring me happiness that I can't find anywhere else.
As introverted and anti-social as I am, this lockdown is surprisingly making me miss going out.
My version of going out is church and eating out with my husband, running errands (though I don't miss those involving government offices), going to the spa or salon and watching a movie.
Once in a while, I meet friends or family.
I miss traveling. I don't travel as much now as when I was single. But I do miss seeing new places, relaxing, enjoying nature.
I miss the feel of the beach sand in my toes, the smell of salt in the air, the cool breeze and the sound of the waves.
Now all I could do is look at my travel photos on Instagram (In case you haven't yet, follow me @lifeandlove_blog).
I miss my two aunts whom we've lost this year. It's only May and our family already lost two members.
They're both huge parts of my childhood.
Speaking of which, I miss being a child when the only crisis I had to deal with was how to keep my broken toys so I don't get reprimanded.
My childhood was not perfect. But it was memorable and I was full of hope and dreams.
I guess that's what I miss the most about it. When I believed in everything and possibilities seemed limitless.
I miss eating my favorite foods in my favorite restaurants.
You know what else I miss?
- I miss being able to express an opinion without being shamed and ridiculed by those who don't share the same belief.
- I miss those days when we can freely share who we're supporting and not end up in heated debates.
- I miss logical and objective arguments. Now all you get are pointless rebuttals and personal attacks. 🙄
Respect and freedom of speech seem to have lost their meaning and value.
When I was young, we were taught to be polite to people especially to the elders. Oh, we will never hear the end of it if we went to someone's house and we forgot to say "Good morning".
Now I see young people and they act as if it's not cool to be courteous anymore. Not all. But majority.
What have we become as a society?
It seems the more advance the technology, the more backwards we have become.
I miss the simple life.
Now, I'm not grumbling. I'm blessed and I know it.
I'm grateful for:
- being alive and well
- having a wonderful husband
- having food on the table and a roof over my head
- my family and friends
- my faith that's keeping me sane
- doors of opportunities opening
- simple indulgence like watching FRIENDS and eating chocolates
I pray that this crisis will soon end and we can move our lives forward from this p andemic.
If you've lost someone dear, I'm sending you my deepest sympathies and leaving you this verse:
He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death
or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.
-Revelation 21:4
Your turn
- What do you miss most about your life before c oronavirus?
- What are you thankful for today?
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