Lux Thinking Aloud


8:41 PM

birds flying over purple pink sunset sky

Today, my aunt was put to rest. We call her Mommy. At 2 PM, my family bid Mommy goodbye. 


Most of us weren't there because of this lockdown. Only ten people were allowed and they had to observe social distancing. 

Typical Mommy fashion. 

She's the type of person who doesn't want attention or big events. She rarely leave her house. I can count in one hand the times I saw her go out. And that's in the whole 30+ years of me knowing her.

She does things her way. Even her doctor can't get her to follow prescription. A very stubborn woman who doesn't follow instructions. 

She died at her own terms.

Goodbye is bittersweet.

I wonder what she was thinking during her last moment.

You see, she was brought to the hospital when she had a hard time breathing. But when my cousin went back to her room, she was gone. 

Because she removed the oxygen that was supporting her.

She didn't want to fight anymore. 

I wonder how that feels. To lose the will to live. To not have anything to look forward to every day.

Goodbye is bitter because we weren't able to pay our last respect. We weren't there to bring her to her final destination (here on earth).

Sweet because no more pain and health issues for her. She'll finally be reunited with her sister whom she had a love-hate relationship with. 

I guess it's more love than hate after all. For why would she want to see her again so badly?

Someday when this is all over, we sure will have our own bittersweet stories to tell.

If our elders have their war stories for us when we were kids, we'll have our life in the time of c oronavirus chronicles.

That's why I'm logging in my thoughts and feelings every day. Because I might forget and I don't want to.

I want to remember everything. Every struggle, every highlight and even every mediocre moment in this lockdown.

Including all the people that made this challenge easier. And especially those who showed their true colors. 

Oh, I will never forget who selflessly served and those who took this as an opportunity to abuse their power.

One day this p andemic will be over. This dark time will end.

The bright sun will shine upon us again.

And we'll say goodbye to this unpleasant chapter of life forever.

Now may the Lord of peace Himself give you 
His peace at all times and in every situation.
-2 Thessalonians 3:16 

Your turn

  • What has been the highlight of your lockdown so far?
  • Who are the people who shined the most for you during this time of crisis?

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  1. I'm so sorry. May God give you peace from now forward.