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Lockdown Diary Day 34: Sleepless

11:17 PM

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Sleepless


I am literally sleepless today. I took pain medicine yesterday for my headache and the caffeine in it is too strong. Despite me taking only half the dose.

So here I am, feeling hangover from a drinking session I never went to.

Still standing (or sitting down). Still hustling.

The bad thing about not getting sleep is that our bodies are not functioning as it should.

On Day 32, I wrote about having a life balance. Anything in excess is not good. And here I am totally sleepless.

I can feel the effects of overworking my brains:

  • dizziness
  • nausea
  • shortness of breath
  • stomach upset
  • uneven skin tone
  • irritability

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My husband could attest to the last one. 🤣

If I will have to be honest, it's not just the caffeine that kept me awake. (I've already learned my lesson and only takes half the dose since that time I had palpitations.)

But worry has once again conquered me.

And no matter what tips you follow for getting a good night sleep, if your mind is filled with fear and anxiety, it's useless.

I worry about what will come about after this pandemic.
I worry about how the government leaders with selfish intentions would respond to this crisis.
I worry about my career.

I worry about a lot of things.

Worry steals from today.

As for me, it stole my rest.

It stole my peace.
It stole what would have been a more productive day for me.
It stole more time I could have spent with my husband.

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Instead of doing these things, I spent it trying to think straight. Trying to not lose my temper to my husband who's also in desperate need of sleep.

Two cranky people who are also hungry trying to get by the day is not a good combination.

I'm glad my husband is quick to apologize and even quicker to forgive.

I spent today trying to function despite feeling lethargic and out of it.

Antidote for sleepless night

Searching on the web about sleeping, here's a verse I've found:

In peace I will lie down and sleep 
for you alone, O LORD, will keep me safe. 
-Psalm 4:8

I feel bad for falling into this weakness again.

When I worry and fear, I know I am insulting God.

There are many times God commanded us to not worry in the Bible. But in my weakness, I allowed the enemy to make my mind a playground for his lies again.

Lord, grant me the grace to believe and obey you.

Calm my worries.
Allow me to rest at your feet.
May I sleep in Your presence tonight.
Amen.

Your turn

What makes you sleepless?
What are your tips for a good night rest?


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