Lux Thinking Aloud Beginning 5:29 PM Part of my pandemic diary entry: It's a brand new month! Another beginning. Are we ready? The beginning can be challenging.The beginning is usually the hardest. When you start to learn how to write when you are in kindergarten. When it was your first day in your new job and you have no clue how things work. When you begin your life after a complicated and messy break-up. It was tough, yeah? But beginnings can also be exciting and promising. That is why people get hyped up on New Year. Beginnings can be beautiful. I love the early mornings when it's calm, peaceful, and quiet. I miss waking up early. Since the outbreak happened, I've been sleeping late. I love starting a new book. It's like stepping into another world and seeing things with fresh eyes. I love visiting places for the first time. It's giving me a new perspective. It makes me realize that there is more to explore. When you see how big the world is, your problems seem insignificant. Don't you love the getting-to-know-each-other stage when you first meet someone? When you begin to realize you're on the right track, when you finally see what you're worth, when you're starting to experience your breakthrough---oh, it is priceless! New relationships. New chance in life. New chapter. They make life more thrilling, don't they? New beginnings are full of hope and possibilities. It's like a blank page waiting to be filled with magical words. Like a blank canvas about to be turned into a work of art. I hope this brand-new month is better than the previous ones. I hope this is the start of the new normal that is best for all of us. I hope that this is the beginning of the end of the crisis. Am I asking for too much?
Lux Thinking Aloud Eager 5:11 PM Are you eager for this month to end and find out what next month has in store for us? Yeah, me too. More than that, I am eager to finally hear the words: "The world is now C OVID-19 free!" Eager I am eager to learn all that you want me to do; help me to understand more and more. -Psalm 119:32 With my human wisdom alone, I know I will not be able to understand the purpose behind of all the hardships we face. Especially this p andemic. This virus has revealed to us many things. This p andemic has unmasked a lot of people. Especially those in the government. We are learning a lot about the those we live with and even about ourselves. I've realized that with this l ockdown, I am more eager: to hear God's voice to see the glorious ending to all this to visit my family and dogs soon to care for nature more to travel again to see a brand new tomorrow I am eager to learn what God is teaching me.I'm eager to know what's in the next chapter because this one sucks! So far, this quarantine has taught me: that I still need to strengthen my faith (I can still get shaken) to do what I can and entrust to God what I can't to appreciate everything I have to be wiser and learn from the ants that whatever we give nature, nature will give back to us a hundredfold that people will always find a way to defend what they believe in even when it's wrong I'm learning that there are still a lot more for me to learn. I can relate to what the genius Albert Einstein said: "The more I learn, the more I realize how much I don't know." We humans could get arrogant sometimes. We think we are superior because we are the "smarter species". We build bridges, we invent devices, we made progress people in the past could only dream of. We make weapons and think we are invincible. Yet a microscopic organism toppled our economy and drove us all into hiding. Even the strongest, smartest, proudest among us was taken by surprise by this invisible enemy and for a time, felt defenseless. I hope we learn that animals and nature in general is here with us and not for us. We are carers. We are stewards. It's time to treat other creatures with respect and kindness. It's time to appreciate nature and not take it for granted. It's time to go back to basic. It's time to humble ourselves. It's time to learn. It's time to heal. Let's not wait for another p andemic to hit us before we finally learn what we need to do. Your turn What are you eager to happen after this crisis? What have you learned so far during this l ockdown?
Faith Waiting 10:32 AM If there's a level in the waiting game, I'd say I'm at Expert by now. I've waited for God's answers to my prayers for a long time. He's tested my patience, increased my faith and pruned me during that long waiting period. And now I find myself waiting again. Waiting I think we are always waiting for something at certain times. We wait for our water to boil so we can enjoy our tea or cereal. We wait for our flights. (Oh, traveling! I forgot how that feels. 😅) We wait for a client's reply if a project is a go or a no. We wait for a movie to premier after watching several trailers online. We wait for our food delivery to arrive and hope it comes before we turn into a hangry (hungry + angry) monster. We wait for this p andemic to be finally over. I don't know about you but sometimes I feel sick and tired of hearing about the news. Bad news after bad news after bad news. Every. Single. Day.2020 is really kicking all our asses. What have you been waiting for lately? Joyful are those who listen to me, watching for me daily at my gates, waiting for me outside my home! -Proverbs 8:34 The waiting period is not exactly a joyful phase. Especially when you're not sure if the answer you've been waiting for is what you're going to receive. Aristotle said: Patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet. When I was discerning if marriage was for me, I stayed single for a long time. I kissed dating goodbye. That's a title of a book I haven't read it. I heard it's good.[Click here if you want to order I Kissed Dating Goodbye by Joshua Harris.] I enjoyed every me-time I have. Oh, I had ample back then. Yes, I was happy. But there were long, lonely, cold nights too. Gfycat When I was waiting for my life after graduation to start, I was reviewing for the board exam. There were a lot of terms and formulas to memorize. I have no idea how I passed it. I'd say only by God's grace. 🤣 But the waiting period between after the exam until it was announced was filled with tension. It wasn't particularly joyful. This q uarantine period is fine. Because I'm working from home for years now, quarantine is not new to me. All these things going on around the world though are getting to me as the days go by. It's different knowing you're staying home because you want to and staying home because you're forced to. We humans love our freedom, don't we? Pinterest So this l ockdown has somehow messed up my mental health. There was a time when I had to disconnect from the world. As much as I wanted to be in the know of what's happening, I needed to step back.I had to take refuge in God's presence like never before. I had to desperately search for things to keep my mind off the crisis. I felt like a fish out of water hopelessly trying to breathe. Thankfully, distancing from the news and social media helped. See the simple therapies I found on my previous entries. Day 20: Unproductive Day 16: Lover Day 14: Self-growth Day 9: Hustle Day 7: Simple Life Day 6: Friends and Chosen Day 5: Disconnect Day 2: Gratitude List The whole world is waiting with bated breath for when we can all finally step out of the house, hug each other again and enjoy our freedom. When will that be? I don't know. It's not easy waiting alone. But knowing we're in this together makes it a little better. Your turn How long do you think this quarantine will last? What do you do while waiting for something? May contain affiliate link.
Lux Thinking Aloud Refuge 9:49 AM Imagine this. You're half-asleep and half-awake. You feel an eerie presence in the room. You want to open your eyes or move but you can't....You're body froze. You can't breathe. You want to scream but no voice is coming out. Have you ever experienced sleep paralysis? I lost count of the times I've had encounters during my sleep. And every time, I take refuge in the presence of God. Refuge I can't explain why it always happens to me. Do I pray before going to bed? Yes. So why do I still experience this? I don't know. I can assume that it's guilt. When this happens, it's usually when I know I sinned and I feel guilty about it. Or when I feel emotionally distant from God. Sin keeps us away from God. When I know I did something wrong, I feel shame. I feel unworthy to be in God's presence. I think this is an opportunity for the enemy to step in and take advantage of my weakness. But that's just me. I know God is merciful. I know I'm saved. The enemy is deceitful. It makes us believe we are doomed. Thankfully, I don't get this anymore. At least not as often. Now that we're more aware of what could give the bad spirits an entry way into our home, my husband and I are more careful about choosing the media we consume. I want to share this chapter in the Bible which I would read with my prayers before bedtime when I was getting these attacks. Psalm 91 Those who live in the shelter of the Most High will find rest in the shadow of the Almighty. This I declare about the LORD: He alone is my refuge, my place of safety; He is my God, and I trust him. For He will rescue you from every trap and protect you from deadly disease. He will cover you with his feathers. He will shelter you with his wings. His faithful promises are your armor and protection. Do not be afraid of the terrors of the night, nor the arrow that flies in the day. Do not dread the disease that stalks in darkness, nor the disaster that strikes at midday. Though a thousand fall at your side, though ten thousand are dying around you, these evils will not touch you. Just open your eyes and see how the wicked are punished. If you make the LORD your refuge, if you make the Most High your shelter, no evil will conquer you; no plague will come near your home. For He will order his angels to protect you wherever you go. They will hold you up with their hands so you won’t even hurt your foot on a stone. You will trample upon lions and cobras; you will crush fierce lions and serpents under your feet! The LORD says, “I will rescue those who love me. I will protect those who trust in my name. When they call on me, I will answer; I will be with them in trouble. I will rescue and honor them. I will reward them with a long life and give them my salvation." Your turn What's your favorite Bible verse? Have you experienced sleep paralysis? Share it.
Faith Possible 8:31 AM Is it possible that this crisis will end soon? Is there something good that will come out of this p andemic? Will we ever survive this challenge? Is everything going to be okay? Possible If you're an over-thinker like me, you may have also suffered from anxiety attack during this quarantine. So many questions. I continue to believe that no matter how difficult the situation we are in right now, we will survive. We will even thrive. Not with our own strength, but with the help of God. Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” -Matthew 19:26 All things are possible. The good kind of possible. Because our God is good. When I feel like we're trapped in this situation and fear starts rearing its ugly head, I think about the times God made what's impossible for men possible. It's impossible for women of old age to conceive a baby. But God made it possible. He blessed Sarah and Abraham with a son. Elizabeth was at least 60 years old when she gave birth to John the Baptist. It's impossible to divide water. But God parted the Red Sea and made it possible for His people to escape their enemy. It's impossible to walk on water or to turn water into wine. But Jesus did so. God is unchanging. He is just as merciful, powerful and infinite now as He was before. For that, I will always be grateful. Grateful for my husband's love and service health and safety of loved ones the ability to work despite the crisis more opportunities coming my way nature healing; lesser pollution, animals are more free little luxuries like being able to watch shows and movies online Citron tea---oh, how comforting the taste! my blog which has always been my favorite therapy healing songs Speaking of songs and all things being possible with God, here's an old song I like. Maybe not too old but it's been a while since I've heard it. All Things are Possible Hillsong Worship Almighty God my Redeemer My hiding place, my safe refuge No other name like Jesus No power can stand against You My feet are planted on this rock And I will not be shaken My hope it comes from You alone My Lord and my salvation Your praise is always on my lips Your word is living in my heart And I will praise You with a new song My soul will bless You Lord You fill my life with greater joy Yes I delight myself in You And I will praise You with a new song My soul will bless You Lord When I am weak, You make me strong When I'm poor, I know I'm rich For in the power of Your name All things are possible Feels good to be reminded that we worship an awesome God with whom all things are possible. Your turn What uplifting song is on your playlist? List down 3 old songs that you still love to listen to.
Lux Thinking Aloud Mysteries 7:36 AM Mysteries Who doesn't get intrigued by mysteries? The plot twists keep you guessing until the end and have you on the edge of your seat. It could get your mind off this crisis for an hour or so. My husband stayed up for a Mannatech Live event. He's been using their supplements for his health, so he still looks and feels much younger than he is. He needed to rest the whole morning, so I had the time to myself. I watched two mystery movies today. Mystery MoviesMurder on the Orient Express (which I watched alone) and Knives Out (which I watched with my husband after his nap). Both these movies are star-studded. Have great cinematography and an excellent plot. I suspected the wrong people in both movies, too. 😛 I'm glad I got to focus on something entertaining and, for a little while, forgot about the crazy times we are in. Do you enjoy a mystery movie? Gfycat The Mystery of God Can you discover the depths of God? Can you discover the limits of the Almighty? -Job 11:7 I've always wondered why Jesus speaks in parables or ways that are hard to comprehend if you take things literally. Why not answer the questions directly, Lord? Why all this secrecy and mystery? But if I understand all His ways, then I'll have His wisdom and boy, that is scary. He is God, and I'm a mortal. He's my Creator, and I'm His creation. I'll let Him do His will. I'll do what I can do, but for those I cannot control, I will surrender to Him. I love a mystery. Mainly how God works in my life. I'm still a work in progress; there is still much room for improvement. But I am happy I am the way I am now because God works in my life. He's not yet done. I know things aren't going my way, but I believe this crisis will end soon. And I'm excited to see the plot twist. I know it will be in my favor. And yours, too! But in that coming day, no weapon turned against you will succeed. You will silence every voice raised up to accuse you. These benefits are enjoyed by the servants of the LORD; their vindication will come from me. I, the LORD, have spoken! -Isaiah 54:17 Your turn What mystery novel or movie can you recommend? How's your Sunday?
Faith Fixate 4:45 AM Fixate And now, dear brothers and sisters, one final thing. Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise.-Philippians 4:8-9 If you can fixate on one thought, what would it be? If your life is a movie and you have to keep playing one clip from it over and over, which would you choose? I bet you'll pick something nice, happy, wonderful. When you finally graduated or passed an exam that will change your career. When you finally got over a heartbreak When you found your true love. When you climbed that summit you've always wanted to conquer. When your baby was born. When you got your first puppy. Imgur We are automatically drawn to what makes us feel good. Nobody wakes up every morning wanting to sabotage their day. "How do I ruin my life today?" That's a disturbing thought, isn't it? "Every day may not be good but there's always something good in every day." I know, sometimes it's hard to find the good especially when you feel like your life is going down the drain. I've had those days. I frequently get those since this crisis started. We all have our own way to cope with our own issues. We all have our own demons to wrestle with. When bad memories resurface, when the devil whispers lies in my ears, when I feel lost and hopeless, I go back to that verse from Philippians. Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. What is true is that this too shall pass. God is still in control and He's the same God yesterday, today and forever. What is honorable is not using this p andemic as an opportunity to take advantage of people who are desperate. It's thinking about ways to help. What is right is giving yourself a break. Letting yourself rest if you have to. Distant yourself from toxic people and news. Keep your mind and body healthy. We Heart It What is pure are dogs and babies. Watching dog and baby videos reminds me how beautiful innocence is. It reminds what genuine love looks like. What is lovely is the planet we live in. Nature that's not abused and defiled is incomparable in its beauty. I look at the places I visited before and those I would love to go to someday. Lovely thoughts are those with my wonderful husband, family and friends. Lovely also are the news about people showing what humanity really means especially in the time of c oronavirus. What is admirable are the people who continue to give and serve without political gain. Those who continue to fight bravely for what is just. Those who are not afraid to speak up and get ridiculed just to call out the abusive people in power. What is admirable is knowing that we are on day___ of our quarantine yet here we are. (It's longer than 25 days I know but I started when enhanced q uarantine was announced in our city). Those who are scarred and still beautiful. Those are admirable. The noise outside is too loud. Sometimes the voices of doubt and fear in my head are deafening too. But I fight and choose to fixate to only what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. What is excellent and worthy of praise? God's steadfast love. His mercy that's new every morning. The good work He has began in me. His purpose behind all these which we are yet to know and understand. I want to fixate on these things. Your turn What are you currently preoccupied with? What scene in your life do you love to keep playing in your head?
