Lux Thinking Aloud Rested 9:07 PM Have you seen the movie Jumper? It's about people who have the ability to jump from one place to another. Like apparating in Harry Potter. When I lack sleep, that's how I feel. I sometimes come to my senses and wonder how I got to Location B when my last memory was I was in Location A. Thankful that it's not one of those days today. My mind finally succumbed to sleep and today I feel rested. Ahhh, power naps. Short but effectual. RestedAnother realization in this c oronavirus lockdown life: sleep is vacation in itself.I still look forward to having a real vacation once the dust settles. But really, sleep is a good escape from this daily hullabaloo.I'm amazed by how our mind works. Especially how we dream.For in dreams we enter a world that is entirely our own. Let them swim in the deepest ocean, or glide over the highest cloud.-Albus Dumbledore (J.K. Rowling)My dreams are weird. Even I myself wake up and wonder why it's like so sometimes.I've dreamed about:talking with people I know already passed awaybeing dead myself and feeling free because I could flyflying and not being dead 😂surfing in the middle of the ocean (that was more of a nightmare)warcelebritieshigh schoolIt depends on what I last saw or read before going to bed. But most of the time, they're random.TenorI've not been thinking about a dead person for example and then I would see him/her in my dreams. Not being scary but just there talking casually.Sometimes in my dreams I know they're dead, sometimes I'd only remember when I wake up.Some sleep leaves me more tired than rested. I'm a workaholic and my mind has a hard time shutting down especially after a long day.Sleep is one of the things I took for granted when I was a kid. I used to dread it when my parents tell me to take an afternoon nap. All I wanted to do was play. Or watch TV.When I went to college and started working, that's when I realized the value of sleep.Kids, if you're reading this, sleep!Get all the rest you need. Don't believe the people who say you can sleep when you're dead.Without sleep, you'll be like a zombie. Not dead but also not truly alive. What a waste of life.GiphySleep is important to stay sane, healthy and to live a good life. You can't enjoy life when you lack rest. As I've mentioned before, based on my personal experience of forgoing sleep, I felt like a jumper.In this time of crisis, rest is necessary and beneficial both for our mental and physical health.Even during this p andemic, we can rest easy because:He will not let your foot be moved; He who keeps you will not slumber. Behold, He who keeps Israel will neither slumber nor sleep.-Psalm 121:3-4Gosh, I hope I can remember those words every time worries start to creep in.Your turnWhat's your weirdest dream?
Faith Insomnia 8:52 PM Another night spent battling for sleep. I can't remember the last time I've had insomnia. Even during the stressful wedding planning stage, I was still able to sleep. Lack of sleep is bad for the body. Our health gets affected negatively. Immune system lowers. Every system seems to malfunction. Like an overworked machine, it crashes.InsomniaWhat to do when you can't sleep? Does counting sheep still work? Or counting 1 to 100? That one used to work for me. When I was about ten.Being an adult (ugh), I'm going to need more than that. I'm tired but my mind won't shut down.GiphyI don't like being idle because "An idle mind is the devil's workshop."It's when I'm sleepless that the devil whispers lies in my ears. Reminding me of my awful experiences. Plants worries in my head. Sometimes I stay and wait for sleep to come. When it's impossible to happen, I get up and start working again. Or blogging.I'm only human. And an over-thinker and worrier too. When crisis like this happens, I'm at my worst.I've said this before and I'll say it again:I won't be here without God's grace. My helpline, my refuge, my strength. Here I am running back to the word for comfort to help me deal with my insomnia.Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. -Philippians 4:6I am leaving you with a gift—peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid. -John 14:27When doubts filled my mind, your comfort gave me renewed hope and cheer. -Psalm 94:19This is my command—be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the LORD your God is with you wherever you go. -Joshua 1:9Do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. Life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest? - Luke 12:22-26Overhearing what they said, Jesus told him, "Don't be afraid; just believe." - Mark 5:36Trust in the LORD with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding. -Proverbs 3:5Here's a beautiful Psalm 23 song to calm the anxious mind.The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing. He makes me lie down in green pastures, He leads me beside quiet waters, He refreshes my soul.He guides me along the right paths for his name’s sake.Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.Surely your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.-Psalm 23Your turnWhat bible verse do you read to calm your mind?How are you holding up during this time?
Faith How to Prosper 1:35 PM My body clock has gone haywire since this lockdown life started. This Sunday, I woke up who knows when. Thank God for recordings. I got to watch today's Feast Bellevue service and was blessed by God's word. Core message: prosper.ProsperBuild houses and settle down. Plant gardens and eat their produce. Take wives and have sons and daughters.Take wives for your sons and give your daughters in marriage, so that they too may have sons and daughters. Multiply there; do not decrease. Seek the prosperity of the city to which I have sent you as exiles. Pray to the LORD on its behalf, for if it prospers, you too will prosper. -Jeremiah 29:5-7This is a part of the letter of the prophet Jeremiah to the surviving elders exiled to Babylon. They were in a crisis.I like how Bro Arun broke this down.How to Prosper During a Crisis1. Build houses and settle down.I don't think we'll ever go back to the normal we used to know. That normal didn't work. It's what brought us here.This crisis unfortunately is taking longer than expected. To build houses and settle down means we stay. We adjust and adapt to the new normal.If we keep whining and forcing everything to be back to what it used to be, there will be consequences.We have to change our perspective. This is where we are now. What to do with what we have and where we are? That should be our focus.Or else, we'll go insane.Sadly, this c oronavirus is causing a spike in suicide rates. Please know you're not alone.I started this blog to not feel alone myself and to reach out to those who need someone to walk to. Someone to share their life journey with.Message me if you need someone to listen to you.Gfycat2. Plant gardens and eat their produce.Literally, we need to grow our food. I wish I have a garden where I can harvest potatoes, carrots, cucumbers, lemons, onions, garlic, tomatoes, herbs. Someday I will.Figuratively, we need to grow during this crisis.I admit I paused for a while. When the lockdown started, it took me some time to wrap my head around what's going on. I got stuck.I had so many questions.I was in denial and disbelief. I was in shock with the whole nation.But when I got a grip of myself, I started hustling again.Remember that famous line of Robert H. Schuller? Tough times never last. Tough people do.I can't watch myself staying stuck after falling. One day I decided enough is enough. I stood up again, dusted myself off and moved forward.Oh, it was hard. I literally dragged myself out of bed every morning.Anxiety still rears its ugly head once in a while. But I don't succumb to it anymore.I choose to plant seeds. Now, I'm harvesting little by little. Reddit3. Take wives and have sons and daughters.I know children are blessings. They're gifts from God. My sister gave birth just before the lockdown happened and our family's excited and glad to welcome her cute bundle of joy.I also know this crisis is not a good time to have a baby. There's a time for everything.So, when I read this passage, I got worried and confused.Have children during the crisis when there's shortage of essentials and there's a global economic crash?But as Bro Arun explained it, this crisis should be a time to strengthen our relationship with each other especially with our family. Or those we're stuck with during the q uarantine.This time is about discipleship. We should make disciples. We should propagate the Good News.Those disciples will make disciples who will make disciples in return.Phew!Giphy4. Multiply. Do not decrease. Prosper. Most of all pray. Pray for the city. For when it prospers, you prosper.I love that verse. 👆Most of us complain about what's happening and how the people in authority respond to it. I've been guilty of that. Especially when I see injustice.When I hear people cry dura lex sed lex when it's for the poor or powerless but seeks to extend compassion for those who are in position, that's too preposterous to stay quiet.Despite that, I keep praying for my country and for the world. For I believe that when the leaders fail, we all fail. How they think, what they decide are out of my control. But...I know Who's in control of everything and we have an open line communication through prayers.GiphyI love that God's plans for His people, even in the midst of crisis, is not to harm but to prosper.His promise is a life of abundance and not a life of insufficiency. How marvelous He is!Your turnHow's your Sunday?How do you think can you prosper during this crisis?
Lux Thinking Aloud Goodbye 8:41 PM Today, my aunt was put to rest. We call her Mommy. At 2 PM, my family bid Mommy goodbye. GoodbyeMost of us weren't there because of this lockdown. Only ten people were allowed and they had to observe social distancing. Typical Mommy fashion. She's the type of person who doesn't want attention or big events. She rarely leave her house. I can count in one hand the times I saw her go out. And that's in the whole 30+ years of me knowing her.She does things her way. Even her doctor can't get her to follow prescription. A very stubborn woman who doesn't follow instructions. She died at her own terms.Goodbye is bittersweet.I wonder what she was thinking during her last moment.You see, she was brought to the hospital when she had a hard time breathing. But when my cousin went back to her room, she was gone. Because she removed the oxygen that was supporting her.She didn't want to fight anymore. I wonder how that feels. To lose the will to live. To not have anything to look forward to every day.Goodbye is bitter because we weren't able to pay our last respect. We weren't there to bring her to her final destination (here on earth).Sweet because no more pain and health issues for her. She'll finally be reunited with her sister whom she had a love-hate relationship with. I guess it's more love than hate after all. For why would she want to see her again so badly?Someday when this is all over, we sure will have our own bittersweet stories to tell.If our elders have their war stories for us when we were kids, we'll have our life in the time of c oronavirus chronicles.That's why I'm logging in my thoughts and feelings every day. Because I might forget and I don't want to.I want to remember everything. Every struggle, every highlight and even every mediocre moment in this lockdown.Including all the people that made this challenge easier. And especially those who showed their true colors. Oh, I will never forget who selflessly served and those who took this as an opportunity to abuse their power.One day this p andemic will be over. This dark time will end.The bright sun will shine upon us again.And we'll say goodbye to this unpleasant chapter of life forever.Now may the Lord of peace Himself give you His peace at all times and in every situation.-2 Thessalonians 3:16 Your turnWhat has been the highlight of your lockdown so far?Who are the people who shined the most for you during this time of crisis?
Lux Thinking Aloud Friday 5:10 PM Ahhh...Friday. Friday remains to be my favorite F-word. Because it's the last day of hustling. Yes, I can still keep hustling during the weekend. That's the advantage of working from home. But I choose not to. Unless I have a deadline and I need to extend. Friday gives me a sigh of relief.FridayI bet the world will be relieved once this p andemic is over. When we can finally step out of the house without the fear of C OVID-19...that will be the day.I see a lot of news about conspiracy theory. Doctors and scientists showing proof that this is just a plan with money and control as motivation of those who created this virus. We'll be heaving a sigh of relief if this will be not only proven but also stopped.No weapon formed against you shall prosper. -Isaiah 54:17When we can finally hug each other again without the fear of death, oh what a day that will be.GfycatBut until then, we must keep praying. I'm a believer of prayers because I've experienced its power first hand.We must not let this crisis hinder us from moving forward.I believe God is a God of abundance. Even in the midst of the desert, He provides manna and fresh water for His people.He will never let our cups run dry.He will never forsake us.I know I sound like a recording because I keep repeating this. But that's how I calm myself. Anxiety and fear goes away when I remember how powerful and great my God is.Friday. It reminds me to pause and enjoy what I worked hard for during this week.Someday, I'll be hustling for one day only and do what I like the rest of the week. It's possible and it's not wishful thinking because I know people who do this.I won't be lazing around for sure. I might still be glued on my laptop but I won't be stressing myself out with work.I'd probably be attending more online classes to improve my skills. I know, I'm boring.Or blogging a lot. I have pending posts especially those about my travels.adorablyobnoxiousOr be at a beach somewhere with my husband who misses our trips as much as I do.Or taking care of animals in a shelter.Despite all the problems and noise going around, I'm happy that I'm still able to look forward to something good.I'm always hopeful. I like that about myself. 😊Your turnWhat is your favorite day of the week and why?What are you looking forward to after this p andemic?
Lux Thinking Aloud Blank 10:55 PM This is my retaliation to you, blinking cursor on a blank page!BlankI can't think of anything to write because this is like a blank day. A day when it's neither blah nor boom! So I'm freely accepting this as a blank. Yeah, take that mocking blank page that's been staring back at me for 30 minutes. I'm not going to let you bully me into writing something long and inspiring.I just lost my aunt a few days ago and we can't even pay our last respects because of this p andemic.I'm still trying to wrap my head around the fact that the last time I saw her was during the funeral of her sister.Our government is still pointing fingers instead of taking accountability and not taking this crisis seriously.Where's the calamity fund?!Turns out they're not obliged to reveal. It's futile trying to convince the blind supporters that they owe it to the people to be transparent. We're not in a cult. We can't just follow without knowing where they're leading us.GiphyNot going to guilt trip myself into being productive today.I would usually pressure myselfI've worked hard the past days. I'm going to listen to my body when it tells me 'enough' and 'take a break'.Being productive is important but mental health check should also be a priority.Research shows that we need to take a break and decompress so we can be at our best at work—and at home. Maybe we should ask if the life we’re working so hard to create is fun to live?-Tina Hallis, Sharpen Your Positive Edge: Shifting Your Thoughts for More Positivity and SuccessCome to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.Matthew 11:28What do you fill your empty day with when you can't go out and find some entertainment outdoors?I listened to Harry Potter at home today.Basically Daniel Radcliffe who played Harry in the movie reading the first chapter of Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone book.(Hey, I can talk about Harry Potter all day. I'll never have a blank page again!)Brings back memories. College memories to be exact.This may sound dramatic but this is what I always say about this book: I helped Harry Potter out of his cupboard and he helped save my life.Yes, that's how amazing this book is. It's like a refuge for my lost college soul. Maybe it's the fact that Harry had to deal with the usual life challenges we also face but keeps his sassiness and kindness at the same time.It's the usual good versus evil but the plot will keep you on the edge of your seat. True story: I had to pull my lids up and hold it to keep me from falling asleep because I really needed to know what happens in the next chapter! If only I had the same dedication for my college books.TenorI've never had that experience with another book ever. If you know of one, send me your recommendation.Here's one more quote to ease you of your guilt if you feel bad about not doing something today:The mind should be allowed some relaxation, that it may return to its work all the better for the rest.-SenecaYour turnWhat book changed your life?What podcast are you currently listening to?
Lux Thinking Aloud Miss 5:35 PM Since the start of this qu arantine life, I've been missing a lot of things. I've realized there are simple activities that I took for granted. People I didn't spend enough time with because I thought I'll always see them anyway. Well, 2020 happened and cruelly took so many things away. Now I'm feeling an empty space in my heart.MissI miss my dogs. Their distinct smell, their high energy, their contagious joy, their unconditional and pure love and their silliness. Dogs bring me happiness that I can't find anywhere else.As introverted and anti-social as I am, this lockdown is surprisingly making me miss going out.My version of going out is church and eating out with my husband, running errands (though I don't miss those involving government offices), going to the spa or salon and watching a movie. Once in a while, I meet friends or family.I miss traveling. I don't travel as much now as when I was single. But I do miss seeing new places, relaxing, enjoying nature. I miss the feel of the beach sand in my toes, the smell of salt in the air, the cool breeze and the sound of the waves. Now all I could do is look at my travel photos on Instagram (In case you haven't yet, follow me @lifeandlove_blog). View this post on Instagram A post shared by Content + Copywriting (@lifeandlove_blog) on May 6, 2020 at 10:09am PD I miss shopping for my favorite brand on my affiliate store.I miss my two aunts whom we've lost this year. It's only May and our family already lost two members. They're both huge parts of my childhood. Speaking of which, I miss being a child when the only crisis I had to deal with was how to keep my broken toys so I don't get reprimanded. My childhood was not perfect. But it was memorable and I was full of hope and dreams.I guess that's what I miss the most about it. When I believed in everything and possibilities seemed limitless.I miss eating my favorite foods in my favorite restaurants.You know what else I miss?I miss being able to express an opinion without being shamed and ridiculed by those who don't share the same belief.I miss those days when we can freely share who we're supporting and not end up in heated debates.I miss logical and objective arguments. Now all you get are pointless rebuttals and personal attacks. 🙄Respect and freedom of speech seem to have lost their meaning and value.When I was young, we were taught to be polite to people especially to the elders. Oh, we will never hear the end of it if we went to someone's house and we forgot to say "Good morning".Now I see young people and they act as if it's not cool to be courteous anymore. Not all. But majority.What have we become as a society?It seems the more advance the technology, the more backwards we have become.I miss the simple life.Now, I'm not grumbling. I'm blessed and I know it.I'm grateful for:being alive and wellhaving a wonderful husbandhaving food on the table and a roof over my headmy family and friendsmy faith that's keeping me sanedoors of opportunities opening simple indulgence like watching FRIENDS and eating chocolatesI pray that this crisis will soon end and we can move our lives forward from this p andemic.If you've lost someone dear, I'm sending you my deepest sympathies and leaving you this verse:He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.-Revelation 21:4Your turnWhat do you miss most about your life before c oronavirus?What are you thankful for today?
