Lux Thinking Aloud

Hello, Loneliness!

5:48 PM

Hello, Loneliness!
It is in our loneliest that God speaks the loudest.
-Mandy Hale


Hello, Loneliness!

It's been a while, huh?

What brings you here?
I didn't miss you. I didn't call for you. What on earth are you doing here?

Me? Oh, I have been very busy, no all thanks to you. You see, in my attempts to forget you and push you away permanently out of my life, I busied myself. In my attempt to look for your long time enemy Joy, I kept myself occupied with wonderful things.

I have been out there, meeting friends, serving others, working hard, planting my seeds, resting only when I have done enough or when I am too tired to go on.

I am now living my dream. The feeling is like walking out in the field like David with only a sling in his hand to face the giant Goliath. It is scary. But if you know you're not doing it for yourself but for those who need to read God's message through you, you conquer any fear that creeps inside your heart. The fear of being ridiculed, the fear of not being good enough become irrelevant.

When you know that God is only using you as a pen to write His message for His children, a laptop and ideas are enough, just as a pebble and a sling is enough weapon to beat the most notorious enemy that is Fear

I bet Fear belongs to your family too. It tries to stop me from becoming the best that I can be the way you do.

I have been doing great in your absence.

Why did you come back?

Why are you reminding me again of what I have lost? Why are you nagging me of the could-have-been and what-ifs that I have learned to leave behind? Why are you making me question my decisions, when I have seen time and again that I did the right thing?

Haven't you learned your lesson in the past?

Dear Loneliness, you can't keep me down for a long time. You will never win this fight. 

I have accepted my mistakes. I have forgiven those who hurt me and have forgiven myself too.

I have learned to enjoy my solitude.

I have found myself in your frequent visits. I have discovered my strength when you weakened me.

I have learned to live with the pain and find happiness even in your presence.

In your strongest sting, I have heard God's voice. I have felt God's love snatching me from your evil clutches.

As you empty me, taking all that I have, I have learned that Christ is enough for me.

So although I have you to thank for the many beautiful things that is happening in my life right now, here's me slamming the door in your face again.

Hello Loneliness, my old friend. It's never good to see you.

Goodbye and please never come back. You're not welcome here.



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29 comments

  1. Calling out your 'demons' by name - and telling them to go away - love it! I've found this to be a helpful exercise when other demons, such as "insecurity" or "unworthy" come into my life. Identify it, call it by name and then tell it to take a hike! Hope you can banish "lonely" and live into the comfort of God and your community (in person or virtual)

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    1. Yes! Yes! Yes! Thanks, Kathryn.

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  2. **waving** Hiya mami....it's been a while dear....Everything okay?....Oh mami, there are so many things that could occupy your time eh....Lovely Post mamacita...

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    1. Tibs!!! I've been just thinking about how long it is since I've visited your page and heard from you as well. Thanks for dropping by. I am doing well. Pretty busy but enjoying it though. Have a wonderful weekend.

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  3. Love the fact that you surely know how to keep going and occupy yourself. Lovely expression of feelings.

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    1. Sometimes that's the only way to go. ;)
      Thanks, dear.

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  4. Hi,
    Thanks for sharing the great article. I liked it. I completely agree with you.

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  5. It was very soothing to read ! Nice one ..

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  6. Being busy is the best...!!! Drives away everything :D

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  7. Stopping by from the #bloggercaregroup. Loved this article. I am married with kids in the house and still feel lonely at times. I am realizing that no one but Christ can truly meet my needs. "As you empty me, taking all that I have, I have learned that Christ is enough for me." Yes, Christ is enough for me. Have a blessed weekend.

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    1. Thank you, Barbie. I think it's really a part of growing our faith. Have a wonderful week ahead!

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  8. I love this article! There's so many things I want to say after reading this but I'll just say this. I've just recently learned that you don't have to just let the devil keep tempting and distracting you. All you have to do is tell him to go, like you said, literally slam the door in his face. This is so powerful! Thank you for being the example that I've always wanted to be able to look up to. I wish you strength and prosperity :)

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    1. Wow, Diana those are really kind words! Thank you so much. I wish you the same. :)

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  9. I love this beautiful, heartfelt post and the Mandy Hale quote. Isn't it wonderful when we can get to the place where we find all that we need in Jesus Christ? Thanks for that encouragement today!

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  10. Lovely post and I love the way you keeping yourself busy :) Have a blessed weekend, Liuba x

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    1. Thank you so much, Liuba! Enjoy the week ahead.

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  11. Hi Lux! I'm so sorry that you had a bout of loneliness. I think we all do from time to time, but that isn't much comfort when you go through it. I'm so glad that you could wrestle with the feeling, and come out on top.
    Congrats on the new writing gig! That sounds very exciting, and don't feel overwhelmed...you wouldn't have found yourself with this opportunity without God leading you there. That's why the devil is making you feel so bad. You go girl!!
    Blessings,
    Ceil

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    1. You got that right, Ceil. I had to go through some emotional and even technical issues when I started this gig. But I know that God's power is so much stronger than the force that tries to stop me. :)

      Have a blessed week, Ceil!

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  12. Omg.. I can't tell you how I have been feeling the same thing.. that's why I decided to give of myself as much as possible in Service, I have gone back to church too... I never should have walked away but that darn loneliness keeps rearing it's ugly head with me too... I am not giving up slamming the door either, we can slam it together...

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  13. Loneliness does empty us, Lux. I'm so glad you've rejected this voice in your life and are listening to the Lord's soothing and comforting words to you that you His child and He is more than enough to fill that void. Thanks for coming by my place too, my friend! Nice to meet ya and Happy Thanksgiving to you too!

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    1. It was a pleasure to have come across your page, Beth. Happy Thanksgiving to you and your fam!

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  14. Oh My such a lonely essay! Glad you told Loneliness to leave and not come back. Loneliness is a form of "Self Pity" and feeling sorry for your self. You have done the right thing to find happy people and surround yourself with joy and activities. Join a singles group if your church has one. If you are in a mixed Bible study class, do ask questions or speak out when you have a chance, cause men like a woman who is smart (not mouthy) but can hold her own in a conversation. Thank you for sharing with us here at Tell me a Story.

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