When Being Single Really Sucked8:09 AM
if we're alone, then we're all together in that too.
Your friends are great to be around with, but you will always have this longing for something more intimate. A relationship that goes deeper than friendship could go.
I've always loved babies! They're cuddly, funny and downright adorable. Even when I was still in high school, no boyfriend yet, I would dream about babies.
So sometimes, when I'm taking it slow and notice babies around me, I get a pang, a yearning to have my own. But when I really think about it, get real about having babies at this time, Itell myself, "No, girl. You know you don't NEED one right now". And I move on, loving my being "baby-less" at the moment.
I don't mind going solo and being surrounded by couples. I can't help it if my friends would bring a +1 in some of our get-together. I totally understand. But if I REALLY need to bring someone with me, although my list of friends are long, it's a little frustrating when I can't just pick one.
It would have been easier if you've got this one permanent person you know you can automatically bring with you.
I've had long term relationships. So each break up, no matter how long the relationship went is always bloody, always messy, always sucks.
The adjustment period from having someone to turn to all the time, someone you regularly text, call, have meals with and go places with to having to deal with loneliness or being alone for the first time in a long time can really get to you. Being easily attached, adjusting from "having" to "losing" was really devastating for me.
We need to feel wanted, to hold and be held, to have someone to keep us warm when it gets a little cold, someone to fall asleep with, someone to start our day and have breakfast with, someone waiting to welcome us home after a long day, to make plans and do something unplanned with, someone to share our victory and pain with. We all have a desire to love and be loved.
Sometimes being single really sucks. But, we can't have rainbows without a little rain, right?